I am a breeder.....

My food receipts for a family of 5 and my dog food bills match

My water bill has doubled..

My electric has tripled...

It is I, a breeder, who when my fridge quit, saved the dog meds and

let the food go bad.

My feet find the way to the poms before I have even grabbed a cup

of coffee in the morning and the poms are my last stop before bed.

While my friends are on a cruise to the Bahamas and my family meets

for Christmas I am home delivering puppies.

I haven't had a real vacation in 5 years, but maybe soon. All plans

are made around heat dates, whelp dates and vet dates.

I shower and 10 minutes later my family say I smell like a dog.

My clothes are all stained with fecal matter, urine, afterbirth or bleach

I have to remember to clean my shoes before church..

Most of my friends breed dogs

who else can you call at 3 am for support?

Who else has the experience I sometimes need, the med I sometimes

need, or just an uplifting word I sometimes need ? Who else would

understand how it feels to have invested hours and hours and hours in

a weak puppy to lose it?

Or the joy in investing hours in one that lives?

I have slept on the floor beside a litter until the crucial 2 weeks

have passed. I have bottle fed a litter of 5.....feeding every 2 hours

and it taking 60 minutes to do for weeks at a time.

I have learned to be proficient at micro chipping, vaccinations, sub q fluids,

bottle feeding and tube feeding.

my vet knows me by first name

the vet knows my family

the vet now knows my children

my vet knows it was I who added on the wing to the vet clinic

I am a breeder

It is to me that 63 days takes on new meaning still excited by every

new life. it is I who delivers all my pups, towels and heat lamps on ready,

happiness and sadness sometimes intermingled

Even though it increases my work load, I look forward to the 10 day

stage when eyes open, and puppies begin to emerge from the

helplessness of newborns. Puppy breath, a first bark, and a heart of

exploration.

I am a conscientious lover of animals and I have found my niche.

I am a breeder.

And although I feel no shame there is a part of me that feels the

need to hide from powers that could come to invade my home and take

my dogs ...maybe for finding a mild infraction, a leaf in the water

dish? A kennel not yet cleaned for the day?

A rash I am home treating? I tell my children and family to

hush, do not tell others we are dog breeders, and I wonder when did

breeding puppies go into the same secret place as criminal activity?

I am a breeder and I am not cruel, dumb, uncaring or criminal. I am

not raking in money while sitting on my butt. Every penny I make I

earn through blood, sweat and tears.

My greatest joy is a healthy puppy and a wonderful home.

The cards of thanks and the pictures of

my puppy with its new family is the fringe benefits of my efforts.

I am an animal lover, nurse, midwife, heavy laborer, customer service

representative, and marketer. AND I AM A BREEDER.